Mind fart

Did I miss something? Is COVID-19 over?

The virus is alive and well, leaving destruction everywhere. I am feeing that there is so much going on and I’m trying to figure out how I a) fit into everything and b) feel about everything. I need around two weeks or one month to figure it out. There are finally some job opportunities popping up and virtual conferences I have to look into. Not to mention muscling my way into interesting projects at work, my regular job duties, and revising my manuscript. Oh yeah, and life (i.e. COVID-19, election, family, pets).

The point is, I’m trying to focus onto my next move (I’m a broken record) and I am taking my time. I’m always go go go but COVID made me take a step back. Collectively, we all took a step back. Sometimes, I think I’ve used COVID-19 as an excuse not to progress my career, but it’s a pretty legitimate excuse. People are quite literally dying and the economy is not fairing well. Recently, things started moving quickly to reopen and to get back into the swing of things.

Maybe I’m not ready? And…is that okay?

In education, things really never stopped. For many it got way busier and a whole new way of providing services to students was developed overnight. But the conversations have changed and we’re no longer thinking about getting by today and making sure everyone is getting through the present. We have started planning and moving forward, which makes me feel uneasy. We still don’t know how this winter is going to bring or when a vaccine will be developed and administered. Not knowing is really difficult for me since I like things black and white. I’m not saying it’s bad to reopen or plan (as long as it’s safe) but I know I’m not ready.

Some good news: I’m an LA girl and my Lakers and Dodgers are champions. I LOVE LA!!

Celebrate safely!