Disappointment

Job searching. You hate it. I hate it. I want to stay with my current organization and I am trying to move up but it is such a process. My past experience is in the nonprofit sector and limited to administration rather than direct services. My data analysis, leadership, and project management skills are valued and make it too financially and professionally painful to change course at this point. It’s an option that I am looking into though. If anything, to get the experience that I can use to advance with my current organization.

Another set back. The exam process public organizations use is interesting and I would even say problematic. But maybe I’m a bit jaded and biased at this point. If you can’t tell, I didn’t rank as well as I wanted. This is not my first rodeo either.

It’s a process. First of all, the public sector hiring process takes forever, which is emotionally taxing. Secondly, it can seem like a perfunctory attempt at transparency and fairness. I am definitely not saying that this is the case but it is how it can feel.

My sister is currently on a job search in the private sector and she gets through each hiring process within a month. A month! I can’t even imagine that. My average is around 6 months right now. We can do better.

Maybe I’m too honest? Is it fair to allow a negative culture to fester? I do acknowledge that I am an emotional being but I do not think I am alone on this one. Human resources and management are tough jobs and trust has to be established to evade pervasive negativity in the organization.

It was a tough week but the next one will be better. I want to take this negative energy and turn it into something positive. I want to have the conversations that make the hiring process better and address the culture at my workplace. Make things better for everyone.

Despite all of this, have fun, okay?